Paige VanZant opened up in the latest edition of her’s and husband Austin Vanderford’s video blog in which she admits she became quite depressed following her most recent defeat.

In the immediate aftermath of losing to Rachael Ostovich at Bare Knuckle FC 19 last month, VanZant was defiant as she flipped the bird and sent a message to her haters. But she was candid in her video blog about how dark things were for her, even saying “I didn’t want to live anymore.”

The video shined a light on fighters’ mental health. We say all the time that combat sports feature the highest of highs and lowest of lows, but what can we take out of comments like this? Does something more need to be done in MMA regarding the mental health of athletes? Our “Spinning Back Clique” panel of Matthew Wells, Nolan King and Brian “Goze” Garcia weighed in with host John Morgan.

You can watch their discussion in the video above, or check out the full episode below.